a song that reminds you of somewhere : day 5 

your dreams : day 5

my dreams? hmm, not quite sure what to write here since i’ve never really thought about it. i guess i just want[ed] to fall in love. tacky, right? well, dream number one has already came true… thanks to niki ebbing. other than that, i want to make something out of my life. ya know? live at home. i’m not asking to live in a house on a hill with 10 kids…  more like home as in where my life began, where the best memories in my shitty life took place. i wanna be a beautician. go to ehove. graduate. get married. have kids. grow old. the usual. i’m not asking for a fancy house and car. just a normal life. :]


day 4 : a song that reminds you of someone

day 4 : your sibling(s)

dear justin,

where do i start?! i love you! i know you’re only my half brother but it feels like you’re my full!! if i had the choice, i’d move in with you. you don’t understand my opinions, but nobody really does :s i can’t wait to visit you in july<3

a song that makes you sad : day 3

your parents : day 3

dear mom,

i know we view life differently, and basically disagree with everything, but i respect your opinions. when are you gonna start respecting mine?! i’m scared to tell you so many things because you just don’t understand me. most of the time you’re too busy yelling and pointing out my flaws, so we can’t even hold an actual mother-daughter conversation. i hope one day you understand my opinions and values on life. you’re my only parent left and i love you, i just can’t live with you. 

-shannabanana

dear dad,

8.12.05 

that was the worst day of my life.

i miss you so fucking much! you understood me, and cared about my feelings. i wish you could see me grow up.. graduate, get married, have kids, etc. every night i dread waking up in the morning, because thats  the start of another day without you. i feel like i could’ve helped. like i could’ve done something.. instead of just stand there and watch you die. i love you. so much. & everyday i regret not saying goodbye to you. i had a chance, but i didn’t use it. instead i sat there and watched. 

i’m not religious, but if by some chance, there’s a god, and you’re watching me write this..

 i love you..goodbye daddy <3

-shannabanana

a song that makes you happy : day 2

lulz, i mean, who doesn’t like this song?! :D 

your crush : day 2

dear niki,

well, you’re more than a crush. but i couldn’t think of anyone else to put here, since i only want you. with that said, niki, i love you i’m in love with you. you’re not like any other guy, you’re speshalll!!!! :D we have so much in common. i mean, we were born the same fucking day! how odd?! i know i’m still young and unsure of a lot of things, but i’m absolutely positive that i’m falling fell for you.

ifuckingloveyounicholasebbing!

-yourshannabanana:]

a favorite song : day 1

this song reminds me of someone..

i love you so fucking much niki.

come over here and sit on my knee and finish your orange juice.

—sonny liston

your best friend : day 1

dear jojo, 

i don’t know what i would do with out you. you’ve been here with me through everything. you’ve helped me survive this shithole. i wish i could give you something in return. i remember when we met in grade 3(/4). twas’ a glorious fucking day :’] we went from drawing butterflies on the sidewalk with chalk to smoking weed and stealing shit from walmart. lulz. good or bad, i’m glad you were there beside me, making the same memories. ilavyew. ♥

-shannabanana:]

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